Somebody told me that I'd always have to bow...

So... UPDATES. NO MORE EMO.

2009-03-25T18:38:32Z

Haha, so I don't know if any of you read this.. looks like alot of people got purged or deleted their LJ's. Course, I don't even remember how to use this thing anymore, its been so long.

ANYWAYS.

I've moved. I now live in the Central Coast of California.

There's more.

I have a girlfriend. :)

Had to wait till I was 25 for something like this to happen, but it finally did. Girl of my dreams, here you are. :P

So.. hopefully some of you people with the blue arrows will be happy about this. Because, one, yes I'm still alive. Still here, and now I am happy.

I was reading all my back-posts from older LJ's and such. GODS, I WAS EMO. Like, BAD emo.

Crazy shit and stuff.

So yeah.

I'm here, me'peeps.

Zac

Alright you people.

2009-02-06T01:09:27Z

So. Looks like all my LJ's are still up. So in order to simplify things, everyone that wants to should add artfulloser. I don't know if its a newer LJ or not, but it looks the cleanest. So please, everyone, I'm back. Add artfulloser. <3

Zac

lpadvent @ 2006-09-17T22:51:00

2006-09-18T05:51:34Z

So. Once again, someone passes away while I work at Target.

My Grandpa died this morning. He was 83. He had his morning routine, wok up, had breakfast, coffee, read the paper, then went back to bed. And never woke up.

At least he had breakfast.

New lj.

2005-09-28T03:45:29Z

New Lj. If you want to add me, go ahead, if not, that's okay.

Add zerosoundless.

R.I.P. Savannah

2005-09-24T06:59:53Z

You Don't See Me (Josie & The Pussycats)

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where
I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired
Of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and taken and
Tumbling and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds
Where you'd understand
And I dream a
Million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when
You're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the light
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where
I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance
That I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

Like A Stone (AudioSlave)

On a cobweb afternoon
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages
Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
If we're good we're laid to rest
Anywhere we want to go

[Chorus]
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone

On my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and thee angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven
To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The wine was bled
And there you led me on

[Chorus]
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone Alone

And on I read
Until the day was gone
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I've done
For all that I've blessed
And all that I've wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wander on

[Chorus]
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone Alone

lpadvent @ 2005-09-01T22:56:00

2005-09-02T05:59:28Z

I know someone who lives in New Orleans. But I haven't talked to her for awhile. I really hope she's okay. Thing is, I can't find her...on any of my lj contacts or Instant Messaging things....

I hope your alright.

Edit* MorriganLiban. I think that was her Aim... but I'm not sure..

lpadvent @ 2005-07-31T11:36:00

2005-07-31T18:40:49Z

Hey people.
I guess I haven't been on here in like forever. So I'm going to update.

I found out on vacation that I have hepititic mono. Mono that affects the liver. The docter thought I might have hepititis, but no.

I can't drink any more. Not that that is a big deal for me.

Anyways, I got a new job at Target, and it's awesome! I love it. I'm going to start at the photo lab at some point so that is cool.

Anyways, hope you all are doing well. Later.

lpadvent @ 2005-07-31T11:16:00

2005-07-31T18:18:47Z

MindMap

lpadvent @ 2005-06-16T13:36:00

2005-06-16T20:44:05Z

Well, umm, yeah.

Well, I guess I've gone off and stopped talking to people again, either that or we are all too busy. Crap. I need to call Laura. I'll do that after I post this. *nods*

Well, I'm going on vacation to the east coast from July 1st to the 16th. Yay. Gonna eat southern food and gain weight! Hopefully. God, I need to gain some weight. I should work out.

Anyways, Yeah. Okay, I need to figure out who actually still reads these, so comment. Tell me how your life is going. ^-^;

lpadvent @ 2005-06-11T00:43:00

2005-06-11T07:43:48Z

Another day, another update.

Finding out new features for the PSP every day.
1. You can start a movie, then stop it, play some games, then when you want to watch the movie again, just pop it in, and it starts right where you left it. Sadly it can only store one movie at a time, so if you change movies, your saved spot is gone.

2. You can turn on the PSP with the supplied remote. Sweet. And it instantly goes to your music. You can't turn it off with the remote though...

____

In other news, I beat Advent Rising. I love that game.

Still gotta go through StarOcean: Till the End of Time. I'll do that now. Laterz.

lpadvent @ 2005-06-02T17:29:00

2005-06-03T00:45:15Z

Yay, I made a new community! norcal_gamerz

It's for geeks and gamers! To talk about what we like! Yay! I just need help making it look good and stuff...lol

lpadvent @ 2005-06-01T12:57:00

2005-06-01T20:14:30Z

So.. I threw up for no reason the other day.. well, maybe it was the chimichanga...or however you say it.

Things at work are psycho. So much drama just this past week.

Oh, and we will be staying open till 11pm now, starting Monday.

Fuck.

So, every guy I've hung out with lately, pretty much wants to have a relationship. And I can't do that. Not with a guy. At least not at this point in my life.

Strangly, it's very hardfor me to tell someone to stop when they are doing something to me I don't like. Like driving a car and he suddenly puts his hand in my lap, and starts rubbing! Like, hey whoa! And it's with a manual car too.

But no, I couldn't tell him to stop. All I can do is not talk to him. I'm going to have to talk to him. Because I like hanging out. And hell, I do like the sex and stuff, but hey, I need some female interaction. lol

But yeah, I just gotta figure out a way to tell him we can hang out, but please keep your hands off.

Laura.. you've stopped talking to me! Where have you gone?!

lpadvent @ 2005-05-18T13:24:00

2005-05-18T20:43:41Z

Well, you realize who views you how when you let out into the world more about yourself.

Right now, I fit into size 4 women pants. Yes.Size 4. I was amazed too.

So, I said I cross-dressed, and one person I really cared for view me differently. Well, what can I do? I'm not going to change for people anymore. I'm me. Like I've said. This is me, take it, or just go.

I'm fed up with people judging people, just because they are different. You will NEVER find me doing that. I take you as you are, and love you still.

Well, I'm off.

lpadvent @ 2005-05-17T14:12:00

2005-05-17T21:25:05Z

Girls pants, and spandex shirt.

Hot or not?

If you ask nicely, I can show you the drag undergarments pictures.

I'd do me.

lpadvent @ 2005-05-17T12:25:00

2005-05-17T19:36:23Z

Today is thong day. Wish me luck!

Okay, so I found a good bra. The only thing is, what to fill it with. :\

I'm at a hard point here guys. Pudding takes awhile to make...

lpadvent @ 2005-05-16T23:00:00

2005-05-17T06:13:18Z

So... Lately I've been trying crossdressing. And for halloween I'm going drag.

I just need to figure out the best way to make fake boobs. Anyone got a pair of slicone things that you could send me? Lol.

Anyways. Yeah. I think I'd be a hot woman. Thin and Sexy. I'd do me....

-.-;;

Well, I'll figure something out.

*watches as everyone freaks out and runs away because Zac is weird!!!*

lpadvent @ 2005-05-08T20:29:00

2005-05-09T03:40:35Z

So.. I have many new favorite things.

My favorite movie is The Girl Next Door. Followed by The Hitchhikers Guide, and then Sahara, Dog Soldiers, and the three Ginger Snaps movies.

My favorite male chinese (or is he japanese) actor is Takeshi Kaneshiro.

My favorite new band is Jem. Edit! Lost Prophets is still most favorite!! *dies at thought of Ian... *

And then there is Tender Forever. I love Tender forever. ^-^

lpadvent @ 2005-05-07T00:54:00

2005-05-07T07:55:16Z

So. Today I had a dream about the two french girls. It was awesome. We were hanging out and talking and stuff. So cool.

Also, today I died. Many times. I had severe stomach cramping all day. Total suckage. I practically lay on the floor of the bathroom all day long.

So yeah. Tis my day.

Don't Panic!

2005-04-29T20:38:03Z

Yesss.... yess.. today... is extreme nerdgasm day.

Thank you Douglas Adams. We miss you.

*'splodes*

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive..

2005-04-28T19:19:49Z

So I got the Tegan and Sara cd, and The Blow cd came too. Yay Khaela! Both are awesome!

Things are good. Really. I haven't been depressed for awhile, so that's good. I just really need to move out at some point.

Anyways... everything is good.. so that's all I have to say.

lpadvent @ 2005-04-24T23:26:00

2005-04-25T06:38:43Z

So... Um.. what to update?

I got the new Jimmy Eat World cd, Futures. I bought a cd on Amazon by someone called Tegan and Sara. I heard them in a record store and the store was out, so I ordered. I also got Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind.

So I met some amazing french band girls the other night, and we became friends. Now, one of them went back to France, and the other is in Olympia, WA. I've now become good friends with them both.. well, mostly. We email eachother back and forth. It's awesome. Valerie, the one in France, is sending me a cd, signed and dedicated!

So cool.

lpadvent @ 2005-04-18T20:09:00

2005-04-19T03:14:47Z

"EARTH!"
"FIRE!"
"WIND!"
"WATER!"
"HEART!"

"Go Planet!"

"By your powers combined, I am Captain Planet!"

Captain Planet, he's our hero
Gonna take pollution down to zero

He's our powers magnified
And he's fighting on the planet's side

Captain Planet, he's our hero
Gonna take pollution down to zero

Gonna help him put asunder
Bad guys who like to loot and plunder

"You'll pay for this Captain Planet!"

We're the Planeteers
You can be one too
'Cause saving our planet is the thing to do!

Looting and polluting is not the way
Hear what Captain Planet has to say!

"The Power is Yours!"

Am I a geek or what?!

lpadvent @ 2005-04-16T13:15:00

2005-04-16T20:16:17Z

You know what I've realized? Nobody ever really emails eachother anymore. I mean personally sends emails to eachother. It's sad. We all just put stuff in here, saying things in general.

I need to do it too. I will. Haha. Personal emails are nice to get.

So.. seeya.

Pardon my fucking french.

2005-04-15T06:16:38Z

I'm fucking done with her. Done. I can't fucking take anymore. I'm sick of her bipolar fucked up attitude. I'm done with her being angry at me for no apparent reason. I'm just finished.

I don't know what to do, or say.. but I'm done.

I won't bore you all with why. Nobody has been commenting lately, so I don't even know who reads this anymore. So I just won't bore you.

Just know that I'm done with Melanie.

lpadvent @ 2005-04-10T23:35:00

2005-04-11T06:37:52Z

I got new shoes.

Leia found me a sweet record store down in Auburn. It's called Off The Record, and it has stuff you can't find anywhere else, and tons of low priced used cds that you want! Not like the cds nobody wants, ones your looking for.. in good shape and low priced. It also has some hot topic-like stuff.

Sweet.